Thursday, June 12, 2008
Study study studyI just don't get why I can't get started! What and why am I dreading?
How???? I remember saying the same thing two years ago for Os too, and of course didn't go about doing anything. Dies....
ANyway, Sarah CHew, my roommate and direct junior is going back to study in malaysia for good. I am really happy for you, because I myself wished I had the chance too, so treasure the time you have there k? and of course don't forget your dreams =) sorry, i can't post a photo of you as you requested coz the internet connection is too slow. Another time k?
With so many people leaving / have left I feel really down. Its true that I am already used to separations after 6years, but there is still the sense of loss. It just makes me realise how fragile human relationships are, once the physical proximity is no longer there, how many people can still stay close to each other?! maybe some people can, but I find it hard. Sigh. Thats the sad thing about being a scholar. Being away from your roots, making new friends and stuff surely sounds exciting, but when you come to think of it, everyone dreams big, everyone's gonna go their separate ways, the type of friendship you have is also just different from those from the same culture and background. The sense of belonging you find when you return to your hometown is what I crave, but I have lost it, after so many years, and certainly I don't feel it on this foreign land.
I am so stuck in between, sometimes I really wished I hadn't left home so early. I feel lost and lonely so often that I am already used to it. Is it a good or a bad thing?
My thoughts are not even coherent now. Sheesh.
Y11:38 pm
