I went queesway today, bought a pair of shoes I don't exactly like, but they are really comfortable.
Anyway practising for audition tomorrow. Wish me luck!
Y10:30 pm
Sunday, January 28, 2007
I just went blog hopping. Read the blogs of some Taiwanese artistes and also some news. Apparently an actress named, Xu Wei Lun passed away just now at 7+ due to severe injuries in a car accident. She was only 28 years old. Very pretty, with bright future. But she left just like that after two days of unconsciousness, not even given a chance to say her last goodbyes. I am actually not a big fan of hers, but it really hurts too learn about a person's death, especially when you know that person personally(not in this case).
Well it was rather shocking coz she was traveling in her Mini Cooper, which is supposed to be a vry safe car. Her assistant who was driving suffers from minor injuries and concussion. Well that just shows how unpredictable life is. After reading about her death and a few blogs, I feel really guilty, guilty of my attitude towards everything, as shown in my past posts. Not appreciative, nothing. Then keep complaining about everything I can complain about, never think of ways to improve and take actions. I feel so idiotic.
K I shall not say much here, but I know what I should and should not do. That was definitely a wake up call. Rest in peace, Wei Lun.
Y11:21 pm
FAT UGLY UNWANTED
Yes, again.
I am sorry, I hate it when my best friend is the chiooest person in the world and I look like crap.
Sorry that wasn't my point.
Yes, I felt out-of-place and unwanted.
I really did.
I dont know what they actually think, but I feel dumb and idiotic.
My self-esteem is highly eroded after years. Sigh.
Anyway I signed up for Hwa ChongTalentime 2007. Audition is on this coming Wednesday. I think I am singing 最熟悉的陌生人 by Elva Hsiao if you happen to know that song. Will update about it.
Had mass PE this morning, working out for the first time after the 10km run, which was more than 1 month ago. I almost died can? Well that shows how unfit I am :P Really need to go work out more often. Btw, our swimming PE starts tomorrow!!! But I am exempted, so I ll have a good time laughing at hehe my classmates :)
Went to MOE to sign my scholarship agreement with my cousin brother, James. It felt so weird coz I really don't know him very well. Like we hardly talk, and this is the first time we meet after CNY last year. Well it took less than 5 minutes to sign the thing, then of I went back to the hostel. Slept for quite a while to make up for what I lost in the past few days.
Then we had the scholars' briefing by Ms Lim. It was quite long but fun. I miss seeing Ms Lim eh, really. And its such a big group, 53 I think, of people from different countries, different schools ;D Here in ACJC, we are the mini United Nations. We celebrate diversity :0
Well another blur thing that I did: I left my form in the HOD office on last Friday when I went to change my timetable!!! So he waited for me to go back and take but I didn't. Instead I asked my form teacher for a new copy, and she gave me that glance. I felt so absolutely stupid *wave arms in air frantically* So, I got my form back :)
:D :D :D :D :D
I think I am going to be really busy in the coming weekends, but I also don't know why. Ohh there will be carwash this coming Saturday in the morning, then crashing Orientation Games in OH in the afternoon, Dedication Service at night. Bleah. It will be a long day.
Then Sunday, hopefully I will make it to church, have been 'flying Bel's planes' for 2 or 3 weeks. Then I should have more tutorials to do.
Talking 'bout tutorials, I have tonnes of them to be completed, so off I go. haha
Oh btw, I'm joining Hwa Chong Talentime 2007, singing gou gou shou by guo mei mei :) Auditions are next week, hopefully it will be fun and beneficial :)
Announcement:
Activity:Carwash by scholars Date and time: 27th Jan, 930 - 530 Vevue: Some HDB Carpark in Paris Ris Contact me for more details! So COME DOWN TO SUPPORT IF YOU HAVE A CAR, EVEN IF YOU DON"T, CAN RIDE YOU BICYCLE HERE ;P
See ya :D :D :D :D :D
Another one :
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Y8:42 pm
Monday, January 22, 2007
Sorry I know I really shouldn't be blogging now. I have math and chem tutorials to be done and the newspaper to be read and I have yet to take a bath. But considering the fact that slept till 1130 in the morning and from 330 to 530, I should be able to complete all the above work before I drop dead on my bed.
Yes, I skipped school today.
I skipped school because I had dysmenorrhoea which is really menstrual cramps, so I decided to rest in the Residence for a day, as stated in Mr. Wong's letter of excuse.
You know sometimes I think that I'm the luckiest person in this world. I didn't inform him about my absence from school yet he was willing to help me write the letter when I approached him. Besides that, I returned to the residence late for the past two days, but I was lucky enough to have help from friends around me: Bel, Andrew, Ha, Phuong, Szeching. I'm really really thankful for all these people. Sometimes I think I am really hopeless in managing my daily routines. I always always get into trouble with all sorts on things: the laundry, the authorities, financial stuff, even my own timetable!!! I get so frustrated with myself I don't know what to say. Its like GOSH huizyi you should just bang your head against the wall and die!
But somehow, there seems to be a way out, there is always someone there to help me through those difficult situations. And most of the time, I am forgiven for all that I have done wrong. I think people around me are really really tolerant with me. When I look at myself, all I see is a troublemaker and a screwed-up who can't even manage her own life, despite being so old already. But you all never left me. Thank you people, I love you all so much. I can't list everyone here but of course my list includes Aylwin Tim Suelin Chiwei :) and all the above mentioned.
Just to prevent myself from slipping into the depressed mood and affect everyone around me and once again screw up everything. I shall stop blogging and get my things done.
Love you peeps!!! (hope I am loved too!!)
Y9:58 pm
Sunday, January 21, 2007
Second post in the day before I'm off to do my laundry and study.
Well I have been seeing a lot couples around lately. Have been hearing a lot about issues and things happening between couples. And also people confessing their love for others. And I feel so pathetic. Quote Bel : fat ugly unwanted. Its the feeling of being needed, loved and cared for, and I don't know what else. Sometimes I do really feel lonely, especially when you are living alone away from your family. Its like longing for that warmth and comfort. I guess that's the reason for my last relationship although I hate to admit it: the need for all the above, and when I got these things from elsewhere ie my family, I suddenly realised that we couldn't go on anymore or else I ll suffer. So I had to break it off. Now the reason is that since I am not a person who is very good at voicing how I feel, (yes you might be surprised but most of the time I only tell Bel and no one else) there were things that I was unhappy with at the same time unwilling to tell. I know that is selfish of me, I hurt him, yes I did. But the longer I held on to it, the more harm would have been done, and at the end of the day, both of us would have been more hurt than we were. Every time I think of it, my heart aches. Its amazing how often I think about the past although its no doubt that I am over it, it's been a year. Well maybe I am just longing the same feelings. I was lying on my bed just now, and it came to my mind again. Yes again I am pmsing.
Its amazing what love does to people isn't it? We'd do anything for our loved ones, anything at all. But what is love really?? Sometimes I get so confused I wonder if I'm a cold-blooded animal who doesn't know how to love. Yes its that pathetic. I shall go ask those KI people. Sigh. Sometimes (at times like this) I think its damn hard to be a human being, and its even harder to be a good one, although it might be hard to be a bad one if you are good natured. In conclusion, its hard to pretend to be someone you are not, really. I think my thoughts can really kill me one day. This sucks.
-------------------------------- After talking to Bel for a while, I lost my determination for studying and doing my laundry. I went blog hopping instead, which makes me feel like a grass hopper. Again I feel so pathetic. You know its seems how easy for other people to live their life and enjoy themselves and have no worries and always be happy (well at least when they are blogging) while here I am whining like an old maid. Life is so unfair I don't want to live it. But then again, everyone has his/her own problems that no one sees, maybe some have more compared to others. Oh well, Guess what, I don't care already. If not my head is likely to burst tonight. Shall spend my energy on something else, for example that hot guy over there. Fine there are no hot guys, I'm in my room, and there's only my lovely roommate, Szeching.
Sigh. I'm starting to dislike school.
Y7:44 pm
Hello. Its now 515pm, and I slept for the first half of the day. Woke up at 11, then fell asleep again at 2, woke up at 430. I am a great sleeper!!!
K la, I am actually having PMS and cramps now. that time of the month. Miserable bad. At least when I sleep I don't feel anything. Just took med for it, so its better, but mum says its bad to take med.
Friday: Went out with Bel and Andrew as usual. This time we went Vivo City again. Let me tell you, if there is something you shouldn't do in Vivo City, it has to be dining there, if you are not-so-rich. The exceptions are fast food like Long John Silver's and Carl's Jr. We went Swensens and it cost each of us around 25++. Damn ex la! And it wasn't some nice food. Bel and I had a seafood platter thingy. Its not bad but not nice either. Fish n co is anytime better!!! And Andrew had a fried chicken thingy which is definitely nor worth the price. K we paid for the ambience, facing a lake or sea, a water body of some sort. And the service. Had fun having dinner there, but I felt so cheated paying so much for food that is really not so nice. Should've gone to fish n co instead! K bel we must go next time ok? when I get my allowance :) There was an embarrassing moment at Swensens. Bel and I thought all main course were inclusive of the salad bar. By the way I love salad bar!!!! But this one is not so nice. So after we ordered, Andrew went to withdraw money, Bel and I happily went to take food, only to realise when we are done that only Andrew's order include a salad bar. WAHH so paiseh can when the waiter told us!! So we had no choice but to pay for one more salad bar lor, which also adds to why our bill was so ex. Bel treated Andrew ice-cream, while I ate a bit of hers. I love their Caramel mint!!! So nice!
Then we went coffee bean. This time Andrew treated us. And I feel so bad, I didn't have a single cent on me, and had no idea where the ATM is. So I decided that I still owe Bel and Andrew a treat of either ice-cream or drink. Then we were late, terribly late. And stupid me went to message the person on duty to ask for permission to come back late. Of course she said no. Felt so stupid la. ANyway I borrowed money from Andrew and Bel to cab. And it turned out that my fare was only 7dollars. Although I thought it was really far away, actually its not at all. Then I made it just in time for roll call before the person left. It was like 1125 already.
Yesterday: Met up with SueLin, Chiwei, Aixue, Zhifeng, Renkhang, and Shiming to celebrate Suelin's birthday. We went ------- Kbox!!! It was so fun! It's been a long time since I went for karaoke with guys, except Nick my sister's bf. He doesn't count coz he sings only Jacky Cheung's songs. Sang quite a bit, and I felt very guilty for singing so much coz obviously people wanted to hear her sing la :( K n I brought a birthday cake for her. So we stayed for three hours, and there never seemed to be enough time to sing all the songs that we want. Then parted with the guys, chatted with suelin chiwei and aixue while waiting for the rain to stop. I miss them so much!!!!! Heh got some shocking news from ---- to suelin. Haha best birthday present huh? or the worst? Anyway then met up with Bel and Andrew again. This is when I became moody(partly because of parting with suelin and the rest). And throughout the night till we went to Mc cafe. I treated them badly. I feel so so guilty. I am so sorry guys. I felt miserable too. Met Junhow and gang at Taka by chance. Walked around and finally we went to Mc Cafe. Well I truly realised today how little significance I have and how small an impact I made on people around me. Shan't elaborate but I ll try to, from now on, make it better. I don't know what I am talking about also. That's it for now la. Bel and Andrew are great fun really. We talked about a lot of random things, well its Bel talking most of the time. AND THEY BOTH AGREE THAT I AM DOMINEERING AND INTIMIDATING. Am I really like that? I never meant to look intimidating!!! In fact I get intimidated all the time by all you pretty slim smart talented people. Sigh what's wrong with this world and your eyes??? Or Rather what's wrong with me??
Whats the difference between dominate and domineer??
Y5:13 pm
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Ahhh I feel so embarrassed! I spelled my roommate's name wrongly!!! Everyone, its Szeching, not Sze Ching ok? Don't make the same mistake as me -00- I feel so guilty.
Sorry ya >.<
Anyway we are now both craving for Project SuperStar, so eager to watch butwe only get to watch it on Youtube :( Well its going to end soon.
Haha. I feel like a sleepy head, sleep so much everyday, must change the habit!!!
Work is starting to pile up, especially so when I don't understand my econs stuff. Oh well, its ok. I can do this :)
Hmm.......
Y9:12 pm
She sang so beautifully that it moved me to tears. Go Carrie!
Y2:49 pm
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Hi hi. Actually I have nothing to blog about. I slept through dinner just now, so I just had my second packet of instant noodle. So unhealthy. Tsk TSk.
ANyway, just tp update, I have finally met the Malaysian scholars in ACJ, 5 direct(or 6 i'm notsure) and 5 flow-through =) Had the welcome briefing by Mr Sum today. Then we headed back to hostel, ate and then slept for 3 hours straight, through study time.
Now I am still feeling sleepy :( ANyway will be meeting up with Suelin and Zhifeng and the rest on saturday, for a ehm, very special event :) looking forward to it!!! Carwash on Sunday, so fun so fun.
By the way I am still CCA-less. Well I joined interact club, but its kinda slack. Maybe I ll join basketball after all. Or shall I really propose Archery to the school?
Y11:37 pm
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
All of a sudden I have a lot of stuff to write about.
But not in this post, its just random. I just reread my old blog (the entire things is saved in my account under draft, so you can't find it anywhere, I must've been mad then) Anyway I sounded really different then, I don't know how to put it, but its just different. Have I become more matured, or have I just changed, for the better or for the worse. Or maybe I am still the same old Huizyi, just that I don't see it myself.
I miss drinking The Ultimate from Coffee Bean. Have been wanting to drink it since November. I know it sounds crazy but I kinda enjoy the feeling of looking forward to drinking it more than drinking the thing itself. I am crazy.
Now I remember what I wanted to blog about: my relationship with God
-0 listening to li jia chu zou(canton) by wei lan 0-
Had chapel this morning as its Monday. Wanted to go to church yesterday but we were too tired. I am not saying I am ready to receive Christianity as my religion. I am just a person who believes in God, have faith in Him. To me, it is really immaterial which way you choose to worship him, what religion you practise, as long as you are comfortable with your own way.
I think that generally, a person's relationship with God is an entirely sacred,personal affair. Therefore it is no point forcing another person to follow your line of thoughts. I am saying because my mum had this extremely unpleasant experience with an extremist Christian (she is a Buddhist), this lady claimed that my mum was worshiping statues or blocks of wood! Of course anybody would get upset at this kind of comment right? Anyway since then I have always been very careful with religious issues since its sensitive, I learned to respect others' religions like my own.
Anyway, that aside, since young I had always been following the Buddhist practices such as burning incense, going to temple, praying to the Gods, but I never saw the point of doing all these things except that the Gods will keep us safe and sound as my mum used to tell me. I felt emotionally detached and I always thought that it wasn't what I want. Aside from that, I also thought that being a Buddhist is a very out-dated and old-fashioned thing ( I was young and naive then). The thing is that I never saw the point of doing what I was doing.
Until I came in touch with other religions such as Muslim, Christianity and Catholics. My knowledge of religions improved and I was finally on my way to knowing what I want. However, in the past years, life was pretty much stress-free hence I didn't see the need and the urge to communicate with God. It was truly until last year when I moved to Oldham Hall, I had a better understanding of Christianity, and more importantly the importance of communicating with God and what God does for us, and the whole complicated relationship with God ( of course different people will have different definitions for it, I am not going to dwell into that now)
Then came exam time when work started to pile up and there was never enough time. I remember not being able to study/absorb anything during the day and sobbing in bed at night. Somehow the AHMs reminded me to turn to God for strength, for guidance, and I did. I remember lying in bed asking God to hold my hand and walk that difficult path with me. And God answered my prayers, I felt relieved after that and was able to concentrate better. At least my emotional health was better in check. Although I felt overwhelmed, I no longer felt like breaking down 24/7. I felt that God is close to me, ready to lift me when I fall.
Besides that, its His decision that I should be in ACJ, my prelims results, the struggle that I went through in choosing JCs, the postings. Because He sees that I need guidance in my pursuit of closeness with him, and the guidance would come from ACJ, encouraging me to continue to follow God in my own way, within my own boundaries.
That's what I thought about at Chapel this morning. I am still a weak follower in this path with God, sharing with Him this unfamiliar closeness, but I know that He is by my side, ahead of me, behind me. I know what He is always with me :)
Hope you find your way too ;)
Y8:58 pm
Monday, January 15, 2007
Roommates
'Can you sleep early tomorrow, or else I can't sleep...'
That was what my roommate told me last night (technically this morning) at 1230 when I was washing up and preparing to sleep. And she told he same to Szeching this morning.
I find it rather amusing, I am neither your daughter nor your spouse, how come if I don't sleep you can't sleep? You don't have to breastfeed me or massage for me or change my diapers or do anything of that sort for me, well unless you want to (ewwww)
I understand that on my part I am supposed to keep noise level down while you sleep, from like 9 pm, which is REALLY REALLY early. But we weren't making noise either. its not like we blast our music in your ear or gossip or sing in the room. We just left our room lights on, not even the toilet lights, now what does that got to do with you?
To give you readers a clearer picture, I shall use the following picture for illustration purpose:
Our room(s)
Sorry my drawing sucks, the proportions are wrong but that just gives a rough idea. The clusters or red are the ceiling lights, pretend they are up on the ceiling not on my bed.
So, Szeching and I left our ceiling lights on, but the bathroom lights and their ceiling lights were off. So I have absolutely no idea where the distraction came from, what keeps them awake(or rather the girl who complained). We didn't make much noise except for using the toilet and washing up (we can't help it can we? Hold my urine so that you can have a good night sleep? you must be crazy) Its not like we shower at 12 am or giggle in the bathroom. I seriously don't understand in what way we stopped her from getting her beauty sleep.
If the distraction came from the lights, maybe she should consider staying in a dark room, a single bedded room or something of that sort so that she can sleep all she wants and no one is going to care. I mean,that's the thing about staying in a hostel right? You try to accommodate with each other, not ask the whole world to change just for you. So what if you have been sleeping in the dark for all your life? For all you know you might get a roommate who needs the table lamp on coz she's scared of the darkness. Then how? Force her to turn off the lights then leave her to cry in the dark? Isn't blocking the light with a blanket easier? or getting an eye mask?
Kk, I shall cool down. No no, I am not holding anything against her or anything but I think her request is a bit absurd. You could've asked me to lower my volume or turn off my lights, anything but TO SLEEP EARLY! You are not my dad or mum or grandpa or grandma or RD or RDa (RD and RDas are assistant house masters and mistresses) even my parents don't do that!
Well Sze Ching and I agreed that we will turn off our lights on time today, if she has more to say then I am speechless, hopefully that works -00- I don't want to live in agony throughout this whole year >.< (All of you who have lived in / are living in a hostel should understand how it feels to have a 'different' roommate)
Till then.
Note: I am not angry in case I sound like I am. This incident is just very good material for me to blog about :) Isn't life boring enough? Find some fun then. Today, I choose to be happy.
Y8:18 pm
Sunday, January 14, 2007
My first ever self made wallpaper:
I know its amateurish. First timer mah. The words are lyrics of the song 'More Than Words'. I love it!
Y7:42 pm
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Nicky Chan, take care and be strong!!! All the best in all that you do :)
Its hard to say goodbye. Especially to see someone off, its harder than yourself leaving.
Anyway, today was a LONG day. Actually nowadays everyday seems long to me. Let me put it this way, its like I attended the S2U meeting in the afternoon but its feels like yesterday or maybe two days ago. You get what I mean? yup THAT ONE.
Its 5 minutes to 12, I have to hurry! The internet connection gets cut off at 12 :(
Yeah so I l just talk about what happened today- I went on an emotional roller coaster.
Woke up at 1130, k I know thats really late. Went to OH for S2U meeting, btw thats the CIP project thing I involved myself in since end of last year. I reached at around 130, was a bit lost about it since they had already started the meeting. Then within 5minutes the meeting was over. I was stunned, and I was angry. Hey they made me come all the way from Clementi to attend what, 5 minutes of meeting. Thats so nice of them. Anyway the CIP project is more or less stagnant, we haven't done much so far and its already Jan.Well hopefully more could be achieved so that our past effort does not go to waste. We sat around to talk for a while more then Bel, Andrew and I left for Vivo City.
The bus ride to Vivo City was rather long. And I was famished, didn't have breakfast or lunch. Yup yup Vivo City is big and nice but we didn't have time to explore, we went straight to the food and beverage area and finally settled fo Carl's Junior. I tell you, I feel really guilty eating it but its like once in a while so its okay I guess. Ate and drank a lot, in fact that was my only meal in the day.
We spent quite a long time at Carl's, something like an hour plus, talking about random stuff. It feels REALLY REALLY AWESOME to be out with Bel again, since eons. We can talk about anything and everything. And just as I thought we are drifting fast apart, no we are not, I still feel as close to her as ever. Thank Bel for being so wonderful! And yes I know you do read :) And Andrew too, I am kinda used to being out with you already. Haha. since we always hang out. Well as I said, so much to the point that people mistook us as a couple. Haha that's really interesting. Andrew Tham? No I don't think so -00-
Then we had to rush off to the airport, so there was practically no time for us to look around the shop and browse for nice stuff. This sucks, its torturous! I always love going to new shopping malls, I love the feeling that what you want might just be in the next store, but oh well it is just an illusion, coz that never happens :( Oh well, we human beings live on hopes, when hope is gone, what's left isn't meaningful anymore.
Took mrt to Changi and we were early, walked around, talked cock. We browsed though almost every single item in Watsons while waiting, which is kinda lame coz there were many nicer shops to go to but we chose Watsons. Haha actually both Bel and I like Watsons a lot, maybe its because it makes us feel healthy :D Finally they came, they had dinner at Burger King while we just sat around and talked, wrote on the card for Nicky. Well this is when Bel and I started to get really cranky and crazy. Why? I guess its because we didn't know what was the right feeling we should have/we didn't dare to face it. Whatever it is, although I was laughing and everything, part of me wasn't enjoying myself at all.
Finally Nicky came. Nothing much. We left the sweet couple to themselves and waited at the side. Its really a mixed feeling. On one hand I was really sad that he was leaving, on the hand I was asking myself why am I so sad when I am not exactly that close to him. I haven't found the answer. He went off and Cindy started crying. Its hard to see him go, although he ll be back again in few months time, coz time passes, things change, probably the next time I see him I won't even recognise him. Like Bel said, its hard to see someone off coz everyone around you remains the same but that one person is no longer there, leaving the empty space to be filled in.
We waited at the departure hall till he was out of sight. Then we left. Cindy sobbed and sobbed. It hurt to see her cry. But I would too if I were her. A lot of things came across my mind while we were waiting. about studying overseas and not being able to see my family often. about wanting to be someone that is not loved so that noone will be hurt when I go, wherever I go. about learning to accept this rule of life and learning to let go. And damn. Its hard. I felt like crying, but I held in my tears. coz I know if I cry it wouldn't be for Nicky, but more for all that is going on in my mind.
Which reminds me of the movie we watched at MUTS(movie under the stars) in school, except that realli there were no stars but spotlights coz it was raining so we had it in the LT. The show Click talks about setting right priorities, treasuring life and whatever else you should treasure which includes of course family and loved ones. The show is really touching. Its one of those that will make some people scream stupid while the rest bring home a lil something. A good show for reflection that makes me think about whether I should further my studies overseas, will blog about it next time. I was totally absorbed in the show and unaware of my surrounding. And of course, I cried. Side track a bit, then we went to Holland V for supper, my first time there after 4 years!!! Ate at Swensens, nothing much really except that Cheryl is really sweet for offering to send me home. Thanks girl!
Back to today. Went to city hall to hang out just a little longer before heading back to hostel. We had ice-cream for supper at Cafe Cartel. After visiting Cartel for the 3rd time, I must say that the food there really isn't nice. I ordered an ice-cream that is supposed to have SOME oreo in it, but it turned out that half the glass was filled with oreo biscuit. Since OREO is not exactly my favourite, I didn't quite enjoy eating my ice-cream although it lifted my mood a bit. Andrew had some very sour drink, tropical something, which I kinda like. And Bel had chocolate ice-cream too. Its amazing how chocolate can make you happy!
Then came back to hostel by MRT. I don't like taking mrt along :( Especially when taking long rides. Cabbed back coz I was late, reached just in time for roll call, then here I am, blogging. Its past twelve so technically that was what happened yesterday -00- will be going to BRMC for service tomorrow. Hopefully I can wake up in time :)
'The past we inherit, the present we hold, the future we create. But for those who hope, work and play, the best is yet to be...'
Y11:35 pm
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Lectures are going to start tomorrow. Finally I made that decision to go with my heart. I chose option 2. Thanks Van Long and Christian who gave their valuable opinions and advices. Well I thought that option 2 is better for me coz I really want to enjoy what I study, and I know that I would enjoy C lit more than geog. Studying math and chem is already a big enough burden for me, hence I think I don't want to be over-ambitious and over-burden myself. Although C lit is tough too, its certainly a pleasant challenge for me :)
Hah, am I trying to convince myself or what? Anyway, I am really looking forward to proper lessons, especially for ecoms and c lit. Can't wait to learn new stuff. I got my timetable for next weeks' lectures already. I am really free!
On Monday: 910-950 GP 950-1030 Math 1150-1230 Econs 310-late(haha I think it will last longer than 40mins) C lit
Tuesday: 1150-1230 Math 1230-110 GP (that's all I have for the day!!!! My gosh. only 1 h 40mins of lecture)
Thursday: 1030-1110 Econs 1150-1230 Math 1230-110 Chem
Friday: (tomorrow and next fri) 750-830 Econs 830-910 GP 950-1030 Math 110-150 Chem
Haha. I have an average of three lectures everyday. I am so free!!! I am gonna read and read and read my books or slack in the library. Or maybe hang out at the void deck :P But oh well I know once we start having tutorials it ll be heavy workload. For now I shall just be happy and enjoy my free time in school :)
Oops, did I mention that the timetable was for my own reference? You needn't have read that part.
Anyway, today was kinda slack and stupid I feel. Had some talk in the morning, then slack around. Then subject registration. I approached the MT HOD 5 times since yesterday la! I am so sure he remembers me. Then slacked around for a while. I saw -00- at the void deck :D Then some health talk, wah the lecturer really irritating man. He couldn't even pronounce client, no offence but I just dislike him. But I admit that the lecture provided me with some useful information and its also a wake-up call to remind me to start working out again. After that, went to the gym with Cheryl and Winnie. I feel so guilty. My energy level was low so I didn't exactly work out. Saw Shaun Lee. Waited for choir audition at oldham wing, but apparently there was a change of venue. Roxanne and I were the only people who didn't know la. Well I saw -00- again this time. Finally we got to the audition venue, but I was damn tired already. So I decided to go back for audition tomorrow. So, audition is on tomorrow at 2pm. Wish me luck kae?
Movie under the stars tomorrow. We are watching Click :) then OG outing.
This is such a pointless post. Haha I feel really random today.
Oh ya, I went Jurong Library to borrow books today. On my way to the Jurong bus interchange, a girl approached me for donation, being the very kind and easily-persuaded huizyi as usual, I took out $2 to donate. Then her friend came up to ask what I was eating, it was some mushroom snack I bought from NTUC. I offered him and he kept saying its interesting to eat that mushroom thing, and he asked what is it made of? I mean, what else could it be made of besides mushroom? weird. yeah the mushroom smack was nice.
I feel like rambling on and on. This post is really boring, don't you think so? Well there are things which I wish to get off my chest but can't so I talk about other random stuff loh.
My eyes get tired very easily nowadays. After reading about what happened to Cooro, I am kinda scared myself. Shall use my contacts with more care, and wear for less hours from now on.
I still don't know what CCA to join. I want to join choir and council but its not possible to have both. see how lar, will update. Anyway I am joining Interact Club, wanna do meaningful things instead of wasting my life away like I used to.
My eyes are already half-closed, not because I am tired but my eyes are dry coz of the lenses. But I am too lazy to walk to the sink to remove them. Wait la hor.
Alamak. If I go on and on like this this post will never end, and its so pointless. haha.
Ohya, I chatted with Shong yesterday and Ms Siew Geok just now. I miss those old good days. But I don't want to experience it again. I have moved on. But the wonderful time we spent together will always be remembered. and friendships cherished :)
I don't think its likely that Bel will read this post since she's kinda busy. But whatever it is. We all know that this is a transition period for all. To new environments, to old environments without old people, to old environments with new people. It takes a bit of time to adapt. Its fine to whine about things that you are not yet used to and miss people who have always been by your side, but don't upset yourself too much over what cannot be undone and controlled. Life will be much easier that way. After all, human beings are creatures of habits. Given a bit of time, you will find that its not that bad after all :)
I have no idea how comforting that sounds but it surely doesn't make sense to me >.< This post is really long. I shall stop wasting time typing rubbish and start reading my book /notes :)
Y8:26 pm
Two pictures of my orientation group. btw, where is the CD that Desmond passed around?!
Poseidon: the sexy and mighty sea god
Outside Seoul Garden after OG outing. in attempt to kiss Francine our OGL
Y6:53 pm
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Second post in the day. I am really quite cranky today. Anyway subject registration is tomorrow. I haven't really decided on my subjects yet. Well I have two options.
Option 1: H2 Chem H2 Math H2 Econs H1 Geog H1 General Studies in Chinese(can drop after 3 months, but I don't want to) Total: 11 credits
Option 2: H2 Chem H2 Math H2 Econs H2 Chinese language and literature H1 Chinese(drop after 3 months) Total: 11 credits
I seriously don't know what to choose.
Pros for option 1: I have more breadth in terms of knowledge coz there is both geog and GSC which helps in GP too. A level GSC is taken in J1. SP after J1 I can concentrate on the other subjects. However, there will be a lot of hardwork involved coz I will then be taking 5 subjects. Also, I will be doing current affairs 24-7(econs, gp, geog, gsc) will I go mad?
Pros for option 2: C lit is really mesmirising. As in its all about appreciating the poems, drama, novels. I am really quite keen to learn about the Chinese culture. There will be a great variety to the subjects I study, from very scientific stuff to factual stuff then to appreciating art. However, if I take C lit I can't take geog, I am afraid it will be a loss.
This is really confusing. I somehow expected to have a lot of problems in choosing my H1 subject, now here the problem comes. I really don't know what to do. AHHH. How?
It is pretty apparent that my interest lies there if you can see. Shall I or shall I not?
Y8:50 pm
DANCE audition
HEYA!!! I am a bit high now after dance audition. I tell you, it was fun although at first I totally hated it. We stood at the back and there wasn't enough space so we didn't have space to dance. And I was really intimidated by all the dancers who kept stretching and stretching non-stop. Hah the instructor is really nice. Anyway we learned the dance then waited in the inner studio, this is where I finally had a chance to try to remember the dance proper. Well we were almost the last group so we had plenty of time. So we practised for a while then just sit around and chit-chat and laugh and laugh and laugh non-stop. Finally it was almost our turn. We practised a bit more then we were called to go out: the scholars group(no no, they didnt call us that but we are all scholars indeed). There were three parts to the routine, the first part I did ok, missed the second part completely, did ok for the third part again. Then we were waiting to be shooed away but the 'judges' asked us to dance again, well its either they think we've got potential or we were just too lousy :D Hopefully its the former!!! This time I did better, but I still missed the second part. Its like a curse or something, I just couldn't follow. Anyway I am very sure I was smiling all the while. Haha coz it was really an enjoyable experience :) I can dance for you, do you want to see? :P
Y8:27 pm
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
ACJC
Had orientation last week. I lost my voice, nd I am now a hundred times more chao da then before. But it was REALLY A LOT OF FUN.
The orientation week had really been an awesome experience for me. Seeing people from different schools, the similarities and differences between Sc and Ac. I think there are more similarities than differences by the way. Getting to know new people. Playing games. Doing mass dance. Rolling in the mud.
Haih. I was so determined to write a long interesting post about orientation. but im so lazy now after surfing for a while. Another day ok? Fnally I have access to internet :) I am happy :)
Y8:38 pm
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU READERS OF MY BLOG!!!!!!!
Guess what? I have no resolutions whatsoever. darn. poor me with little ambition and no direction. Lets just say my first day of 2007 was kinda bad.
i moved to NUS High residence by the way. The place is ok. The rooms are big, and there are private toilets but the bed is hard :( I miss oldham hall's bed. However, I have free internet excess, but I can't use it yet :( Actually of all the worst thing about nus high is that its too far away from city. I have to take 40mis to travel to town. Compared to OH's 5mins its like, haih never mind la then I ll go less often. But who knows I have been coming to town everyday for the past three days. Am in marina now. Good thing there is free wireless. haha can online.
Sze Ching is my new roommate. I feel weird having a different roommate after four years of being with suelin. But I believe we will get along well. Right Sze Ching? I have yet to read your blog. Oh by the way the wall sockets in NUSH suck la. Cannot use two pin plugs on them. Coz of that I couldn't charge my phone :( :( :(
Spent the last 6hours of 2006 and the first 6hours of 2007 in Orchard. Met Andrew to countdown together. Stupid Bel wanted to watch movie instead of spending time with me :( Haih Im so sad :( Aylwin and Tim came to meet us at Burger King!!! Well I had my dinner there at 10pm. Kinda early :p They couldnt stay for the countdown :( sad right?
But anyway the countdown was quite rubbish la but fun. We walked along orchard to find the place where the countdown is, in the end there was none. Everyone in orchard was holding aerosol foam sprays. Darn. And majority were foreign workers, Indians or Bangladesh I'm not sure but there looked scary given what I read in xiaxue's blog about new year in orchard last year. We were sprayed at like mad la, especially me. But it was fun :D later we bought the sprays too. I attacked some Indian who whistled at me, and got scolded by the police :( :( Then we sat at Mc D for the rest of the night. At times I almost fell asleep, but I survived ;P Watched Girls out loud on youtube. I think its quite interesting.
Watched Pride and Prejudice yesterday, its such a strange movie, very different from what I watched in the past, quite nice though.
School's starting tomorrow, I wonder if I can wake up in time for school. Have been sleeping at 2 and waking up at 12. My body clock is haywired. Die la.
Acutally im not in the blogging mood. Shall blog some other time.
Y2:15 pm
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I want to travel, to learn about the world
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I want to travel, to learn about me...
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hitting the big 2 soon
MY-ian on another land, where will I go next?
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