Once again I am stuck in the library, this time for 4hours to wait for a meeting at 530pm. The weather is amazing, and just tell me why do I have to suffer here when I can just go home and sleep?!

Anyways, life is pretty boring. The only thing that excited me today is that I passed my econs test, with a 9/10 for part (a) of the qn. But then, my part b was like shit, so there is still a long long way to go before I can take up H3 econs (I need an A!!!). Well, that alone explains it all, I need to study hard, and smart. Like what else right?

My sept hols are quite occupied already. So far I have the followings to do:
Fri 31/8 Watching Secret with Bel (FINALLLY!!!!!!!!) and haha celebrate Merdeka maybe???! May be going home for a day, I need cash!
Sun 2/9 PW meeting. There is a hell lot to do since our activity is not even finalised yet.
Mon 3/9 Out to study with yeeling then pig out with Ros and the rest.
Tue 4/9 Econs make-up tutorial. No ASEAN DANCE. I ll think about it.
Wed & Thu 5-6/9 Hell I need to study!
Fri 7/9 Going home
Sat 8/9 Off to KL
Mon 10/9 Back to Singapore

That's about it, but so packed already!!! I will be missing school for a day, even if the school doesn't allow. Too bad, I'll just take an MC or something.

I feel fatigued all the time *Yawn*

The library's so deserted you would think thats its a holiday.

I am ponning Teachers' Day tmr! Coz of some stupid reason :

I wish I could go into the rain and get drenched.

Doughnuts are nice, Donuts are not ^-^

Look at the tagboard! How?

Murder me and bring there with you my dead body.

Relax ok? Let me think about it first, I am really not keen in going.

I am now in the school library. Due to unforeseen cicumstances, we didn't have PE lesson, so we have a 3-hour nreak before the next lesson.

I am so sleepy, as usual. But I think I improved a lot from last year. I remember in sec sch I used to sleep in class during every break that I have, in between lessons and even during lessons. I was quite well-known for sleeping in my class, but somehow, the teachers just never caught me, not even once.

Now, life is mostly about studying and more studying, I have more or less settled down to do serious studying, or so it seems to me.

Maybe Seth's right, the real bust**d scholars (I must refrain from using vulgarities from now on) are those who appear to be slacking a lot but actually can study on their own. For me, the slacking part is so true, but the studying on my own part. haha still trying to.

Today's weather is nice, it gives me good mood to do stuff, which includes, of course, sleeping. I am just going to take a nap after this.

I have decided, and pls don't scold me Ha! and Phuong!! that I won't be going for Asean dance, its not such a big thing anyway. I will maybe hang around in Orchard on that day, just to meet up with you guys. OK? =) But if you do manage to convince me to go.... good for you!

I still don't freaking understand how to construct a clear line of reasoning! :(

Math and GP are dying!

SLeepy!

Kbox!

Friends!

You!

Aylwin and Tim, prelims ending! good for you!!

*yawns* Good Night.








Come closer, that is all I need.

It seems like not just me, but everyone in my class is having mood swings, at least Yee Ling too. I suspect its stress hitting us, with promos a month away and endless reminders about how important it is to do well. I think I am stressed, but the stress is not good stress that forces me to work hard, it makes me break down and cry. Stupid habboing stress!

it just came at the absolutely wrong time. And every time it does, I am wrecked.

But you won't see traces of tears on my face, no.

Why is it that I can't break out of this absurd cycle of i-don't-know-what-is-it-called?

I am prone to getting depression I think, but well, maybe its just all in the mind.

But still, the tears wouldn't stop, and I can't express it. I just can't.

I am going to get a piercing tomorrow. Just to alleviate the pain.

Don't ask me what is it about, I don't know either.

I feel sad you know, but I don't know why. I have been sitting in front of the desk for so long, but I just can't study. Why am I so gloomy? Reading friends' blogs didnt cheer me up either. Maybe I should just go and sleep now.

Tagged by Ros :) I am not reluctant to do this, probably because finally I can blog again (internet was down! eh still is, I'm stealing other people's network now)

10 weird/random things about me:

1. I don't like to bathe. Refer to last post.

2. I like guys who are not tall. He must have a small built but not skinny. Ah, I don't know how to describe, but my eyes are just drawn to guys who belong to this category. And of course they must look decent, not oozing saliva with hunger for girls and needless to say, perverted. (this is actually not weird l, but since we are on the topic of, you know, guys)

3. I go out alone, mostly to town, and I enjoy doing that a lot. (Its because I am a loner) I like the peace and quiet when you don't bitch about people or constantly having to use your brain when trying to understand what the other person is saying, and of course reply to what they say and not offend them. It takes a lot of energy since I always say the wrong things.

4. I am a lazy perfectionist. Because of my perfectionist nature, I like to procrastinate, coz I know I will need maybe thrice the energy and time other people spend to get the work done. But once I get started on my work, I would try to give my best, and I GET ANNOYED AT PEOPLE WHO DON'T IF WE ARE DOING GROUP WORK. I'd either press you damn hard and give you lots of stress, or I just refuse to talk to you (that's when I think you are hopeless). And the lamest of all is, usually the final product is not anything fantastic at all, just your average mediocre work. I know its stupid, but I can't change that.

5. I read blogs and I would admire people's happening and fun lives, and become all grumpy about mine (or the lack of it) while telling my friends that I am too lazy to go out.

6. Easily touched by simplest things that I see happening to other people, but when the same thing happen to me, I either scream "how should I react??!!!" or "this is not enough!!!!" For examples, sweet deeds from friends.

7. Cry at movies, books, songs even though they are fictional. Come on, they reflect life the way it is!

8. My hormonal changes determine my mood all the time. Forgive me if I complain to, scold or smile at you for nothing. Oh and also my appetite.

9. Ideas always come to me at the wrong time. That explains why I am stuck with no 9.

9. I like talking face to face, prefer phone calls over msn over sms. But I usually sms to check out people's mood first if I were to call (although it doesn't reflect much, now that I realise) Oh and there is thing about me sending wrong sms-es to the wrong people, when I get excited. Like there was this time when I wanted to ask my then bf's roommate about his birthday gift, I sent the sms to my bf instead. Talk about being blur.

10. I like to sing. And I do believe that I can sing. Yes yes I am thick-skinned!

Can I go on? This is fun!

11. I am street smart! when I want to be and am not lazy/ tired.

12. I like guys who have cute bodies and hot faces. The things that I say always don't come out right.

13. I have terrible financial management.

14. I am superstitious.

15. I look way younger for my age. The record is 3 years!

K I should stop here or else I will probably not sleep tonight.

An unstated rule to pass this on to 7 ppl.... I don't know if you have done this but here it goes:

1. Bel love
2. Aylwin da toot
3. Ha <3
4.Meow meow
5. Szeching!!!
6. Quynh
7. the person reading this right now

Yesterday I was lying on my bed, too tensed up and stressed to sleep at like 3a.m. after rushing my GP presentation for nearly 5 hours (excluding research). Anyway so I suddenly thought of my showering habits and got quite disgusted at myself!

Firstly, I usually shower once a day unless the weather is really horrid or I have PE on that particular day, some people find this disgusting but I think its fine. At least I know I don't stink.

But I can go without showering for 2 days, and that happens quite frequently, as in if I showered yesterday and I didn't perspire much, and I am lazy to step into the shower, I won't shower today, even if its a school day, that's provided that I don't feel sticky with perspiration and my 'aroma' doesnt affect my appetite. If I don't stink la! But don't you worry coz I always shower before I go out to meet friends! I swear I don't want to spoil your mood. And no, perfume is not used to mask the 'aroma'!

On top of that, I am sometimes damn lazy to wash my hair, so I just shower without washing my hair, and sometimes for 2 consecutive days I would do that. When do I realise then I need to wash my hair? When my hair's sticky and clumpy with perspiration, or when my scalp itches. Now as I think about it its actually quite gross! I think the record is 3 days.

Oh I seldom wash my face with facial wash too! Maybe about once or twice a week, on other days its just tap water. Only when I feel that my pores are too clogged up or I feel too hopelessly dirty then would i use it. But fortunately my skin is fine, not heavily pimpled or anything.

Eh what else? So far my record for going on without showering is 3 days! Don't think I would want to break that, but who knows? I may just decide to. That was in Primary 6 when I attended this International Brownies Festival in KL, my first time away from home. I remember I showered on the first day, but the bathrooms in university hostel that we stayed in was so horrid that I never wanted to step into it again! On day 2, we went to some place that allowed us to play in water, but I can't remember where. Subsequently, I never showered till day 5 when I reached home. I think I did wash my hands and feet everyday though. I have no idea how I survived those few days but I managed to!

That's about all. And the most recent time that I wen t on without showering was two days ago! When I was absent from school, since I was spending time in my bed and room, there was 'little' need to shower coz I didn't perspire much! Sometimes I do that over weekends too when I do not go out at all.

Sounds disgusting to you? Maybe. But tell me about your showering habits too if they are not ordinary! I'd love to hear. But don't flood my tagboard, post as comments instead!

:) weekends are coming!

've been blog hopping in the past hour. I came across blogs that belong to people whom I don't have a very good impression of. And how can I not be surprised? All I need myself to do is to stop judging and start seeing the world with my heart.

After reading other people's blogs, I concluded that I am not someone who can express herself with words well. I can't describe my innermost true feelings, or maybe they are not even known to myself. I need to stop having my heart locked in the chains of expectations, I know it needs fresh air, but I get carried away with self-torturing, and always end up feeling more hurt. Its not even about other people, its what I do to myself. What an irony.

The pieces are falling apart real fast.

I need a soul mate, someone who can unlock the chains. When I find him, I will share every detail, every dark secret of me. But until then, I am on my own. Let's just pray for a bright and smooth journey ahead. At least He is with me.

Nothing to update about, except that I skipped school today, went to get MC and the kind doctor gave me 2days off. According to him I am still sick from two weeks ago. HAHAHA. Sick in the mind maybe.

Just want to wish all who are having exams / studying hard for upcoming exams all the best. Hang in there! And remember, exams is not everything. Haha.

I am desperate to watch a movie, but stupid Andrew hasn't told me what he wants to watch yet. Anyone interested in watching Secret with me?

3 posts yesterday! What an achievement after having nothing to write about for long. Actually thats not so true because the posts were crappy.

Dah kahwin?! I'm so going to dig out something from there!

The show became interesting when you arrived at the scene. Haha. All of you!

Everyone seems to be having a bit of romance! Always at this time of the year, when you have gotten to know each other better, and you have opportunities like the Asean Dance, you start seeing a hell lot of couples around you. Haha. Even my sister has gone dating (I think) after being single for as long as I know. Now I feel ...eh... free! and lonely :P Nah, I think I am happy the way I am, because I have him!


He's such a genius. I wished I could worship him like my God, but no, he's too far from Him. So, he's just my ideal ___ (fill in the blank). I can't wait for his movies to come out, and how I wished he wasn't married with two kids! Vanessa Paradis, I am darn jealous of you! and of course not bloody 20+ years older than me! But oh wells, maybe if I had known him personally I would have found him the most irritating guy man on earth. Distance is beautiful! Rahh, I don't mind at all as long as I get to admire him!

Hmm. If only I could find someone like him. Ah no, I am contradicting myself. I want to get to know different personalities.

I tried to start a new blog on livejournal, and damn, its so difficult to navigate around. Now I understand how user friendly my blogger is. Love it love it!

And I am still obsessed with my dear Johnny Depp. Will write about my favourite movies soon.

And so He looked down.

He saw you

and

the sky started to tear.

Now you know that you are not alone.

At home now. Everyone is sleeping. I was dead tired just now, but somehow I couldn't sleep after cramming down those magazines. Came online and went blog hopping and to check out pictures taken on the dance. Everyone looks gorgeous!

Oh, the dance. The preparation part was fun! Since Bel said she's gonna blog about it, I shall save my energy. I shall summarize, just to give you a better picture of what happened.

I went to Oldham Hall, borrowed AHMs' room for dressing up. It was a bit awkward coz there were two guys, but overall it was FUN because Bel was there.

I can't tell you what I think of the dance. I wasn't paying much attention to it, except the performance by that beatbox guy. He's damn good! I walked around, met people, talked to and hung out with friends, took a few photos, rested my painful feet, and that is about it. I enjoyed the meeting friends part, and of course the dressing up, provided that I can forget about how fat and ugly I am now.

I wished I had the urge to get high and forget about everything, but no, not yesterday. I was contented with what I was doing, and I am happy about that. Coz what happened in past years was that I danced like crazy, then when the thing ended, I felt empty inside. Yar, you know what I mean. That's why I think I won't like partying, haven't had much of it yet so I still quite enjoy it, but I don't think I will want too much of it.


Do you think I am eccentric?

Yeah sometimes I would say.

I am so sleepy I can't think straight. Let continue tomorrow, no, later.

Let me tell you what I did in the last 1/2 hr. I republished all the posts in my old blog! K there are only 47 of them but... eh ya I republished them. Not telling you the url. Anyway its old and boring, with lots of grammar mistakes (still the same) and boring subjects (still the same too!), so don't bother about it :)

I am quite happy but stressed at this point of time.

Happy because H1 is over, must say that I am very disappointed that I didn't finish both papers, but I realised that always happens to me during exams, for almost all the papers, so the conclusion is simple, I need to practise writing and thinking more. No more type-written econs essay for me. Sob sob.

Happy because I will be meeting Ha and the rest tomorrow, that is of course provided that I don't oversleep :P I shall not comment on the possibility of it happening coz its almost 100%

Stressed because there is a lot of work to be completed over this weekend, such as the interact club video, Econs essay, PW questions, studying for Chinese lit quiz... ah shan't bore you with all that but you get the picture.

Stressed because for three and a half months from now till after my H1 A's and PW final submission of GPP, I will really need to give my best to strive for the results I want as I have promised to myself. I just hope that I will be able to sustain through this period of time :)

That's about all. I know life is tough for all of us. But whatever we are dealing with right now are just challenges that we have to overcome to become better people (Its cliche but I mean it!) You will turn out stronger and more appreciative of what you have, isn't it good? So just cking on and you will do just fine :D We're all in this together! (sounds familiar? Phuong Quynh Ha Sc?)

Eh maybe I should just go and sleep now so that I can deter the 100% fate tomorrow :P

Oh my voice is no longer sexy, now it sounds gay if I try to speak at a higher pitch coz it keeps breaking.

Hi, I am gay!
So... do you love my gay voice too?

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I want to travel,
to learn about the world
自己给自己设限，困住了。
怎么办？
I want to travel,
to learn about me...

her

huizyi玉
female/perempuan/女
hitting the big 2 soon
MY-ian on another land,
where will I go next?

destined

backpack in my country

passion and determination

phone and camera

lose those fats

两只手的温度

speak

take off

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