Tuesday, July 31, 2007
I skipped school again today! coz I am still sick.
This should be the first time in years that I actually had a flu, with fever sore throat, runny nose and cough. Its passing, but I am still having cough, yups.
Went to see doctor again yesterday night to get cough syrup, it made me so drowsy I slept for most of the day today. :(
Now working on GP stuff then off to sleep, don't think I will be able to sleep early, anyway I don't want to cause I have been sleeping so much.
My voice sounds damn sexy now :)
Y11:24 pm
Friday, July 27, 2007
I'm sick :(
The medicine totally sucked! Almost took my life! But I thought meds are supposed to make you feel better, not worse??
Despite being sick, I have this HUGE craving for food! Have been eating so much ok?
Right now I am quite happy, coz I can laze around and watch my favourite drama and don't feel guilty about it at all. HAHAHA
Eh I just don't feel like watching simpson, feel like watching something else.
Oh people, please do me a favour by click on the ads on the side bar every time you visit my blog. I only get paid when you click on it, so please do! Thanks so much! :)
Y9:11 pm
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
SA's having Learning Fest today and tomorrow.
It works this way: we signed up for courses through the Intranet two weeks ago. There were 99 courses for us to choose from. Some were of course more interesting than others. We need to sign up for at least 4 courses from at least 2 out of the 4 categories they have. Then you pay course fees if there is any, and just report to the designated venues for the courses.
Eh, why am I telling you this? I don't know, so that you can get a clearer picture of my life?!
Anyway, I signed up for 5 courses: Java programming (which I didn't attend in the end coz of ...), film appreciation, making your own video, Bollywood fusion Dance (don't laugh!) and last but not least Creative thinking skills workshop.
Film appreciation was quite informative and interesting, but the technical problems we faced made watching movies so tiring. The sound track was faster than the motion, eh whatever it is, so we had to listen to the conversation first then try to match it with the relevant scenes which came about 5minutes later. Especially for movies that are heavy in conversations, totally can kill you.
Making your own video was, eh, stupid. Its all about windows movie maker! Oh I figured that out myself quite some time ago. Was looking forward to something more advanced, so the whole time I was just waiting for time to pass. Fortunately instead of 2 hours, the course was only about 1 hour long.
Looking forward to my courses tomorrow. Haha, I wouldn't mind crashing any courses if time permits. But that's given that my work can be done on time.
Looking forward to weekends to come, although that would mean more homework. I suddenly feel like watching a movie, but no, I won't watch The Simpson.
Y8:31 pm
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Woke up at 12.
Ate lunch.
Put my clothes in the washing machine.
Slacked on my comp.
Listened to music.
Took out clothes from washing machine.
Played comp game.
Waited for bloody dryer.
Planned for the day.
Put my clothes in the dryer.
Packed my books.
Slacked on comp.
Checked on my laundry, clothes taken out by idiots.
Felt furious for 2 seconds.
Met up with friend and left for Mc D.
Ate at Mc D.
Slacked on the internet.
= Plan failed.
How?
I hate GP to the core.
No I hate the way he teaches GP to the core.
Why can't he just understand that it is not effective AT ALL.
Argh.
I want SUPER puzzle bobble!
:-(
Y5:29 pm
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Today hasn't been great.
I was really bored just now after I woke up for my routine sleep from 6-8+ pm. Went to read blogs and played mindless games and now I am so bored so I decided to blog.
ACDU. Finally all my CT results are out. Econs was not bad, but I am just not satisfied with it, with the fact that I couldn't apply a framework to my essays, instead I just blindly described the factors in the context of the question, made stupid assumptions and I don't know what else, spelled words wrongly? I don't think I have grasped the essay answering techniques yet although my content is relevant.
Haaaaaaa. The weekend is coming, but I am no longer in the holiday mood. Have settled down(only mentally) to do serious work like GP presentation and essay. I need to practise math! On top of that there is EoM Second Draft and revisions that I planned for. So I guess my weekend is pretty much gone.
Will be doing CIP on coming Saturday together with elderly from our service center, so people, if you are free please come and support us!!! We will be at Chinatown!!!
I have been showing this lack of interest in anything lately. I am keen to learn but nothing gets into my mind. For example today during PW, Ms Wong tried hard to explain to us how to do EoM, I listened attentively, but I couldn't really comprehend what she said. Ah!
I am still reading a book on Ray Charles. He's a born musician I must say. I decided that in order for myself not to feel so lost about our PW, I shall finish up the book and have a better understanding of him. If not I would just keep bugging dear Yee Ling to discuss PW when in fact I am the only one who is clueless.
Oh no, I am becoming such a big nerd! My post is all about school work, evaluation and CCA. Argh. I have no life.
Ha I MISS YOU!
Sue Lin I MISS YOU!
Bel I MISS YOU!
Ayl and Tim I MISS YOU!
Andrew I MISS YOU!
But I am lazy to meet up with you guys. I just sort of drifted away of the whole hanging out activity, perhaps because I have been slacking so much everyday that I am utterly bored and in need for a change. And when I think about how I will spend one day with friends and the next day thinking about wanting to hang out with them again, I get terrified that I need another week to settle down and be serious about school again. There isn't much time left before promos, hell. And I think I can only focus on one thing at a time. Okay I admit that hanging out is too addictive, maybe we should resort to healthier activities like CYCLING and not sitting in a restaurant / cafe, sipping coffee and gossiping away (I had 3 cups of frappe in a week, for God's sake!), since I need to lose that last 2kg (it was supposed to be 1 but the weighing scale is screwed!)
Whatever it is, I think I need to get in touch with Ha before she reports me to the police as a missing person :-)
I read a magazine titled psychology today and there was this article that talks about people who are not social rejects but just prefer to spend time on their own in their own premises where they feel comfortable, eh I forgot the term for that, but they are definitely introverts. Sometimes I think I am like one of them. Going out just seems so tiring and it always drains my energy, even if I go alone. Maybe its because I need to take public transport when I go out, which I absolutely dread :( Ha whatever it is, I just love my cosy little space that I have here, although I hate the bloody bed that is on the upper deck. Well no choice right?
My H2 Chinese teacher did palm reading for us during lesson yesterday. Eh he only said that I think A LOT, like seriously A LOT and maybe TOO MUCH. Maybe then I should just be contented with being a superficial girl who talks about nothing else but meeting up with bfs and painting nails and shopping and hanging out and playing pranks and partying, then I will not think too much. But he didn't say if it was a good or bad thing! I think being an above-mentioned superficial girl is more tiring than thinking so much please. I will take half a day to paint my nails, coz I suck at that, and being perfectionist I will probably use up a whole bottle of nail polish before I get it done. Never mind me, I shall just be contented about thinking too much. Who knows one day I will think out of the box and decide to marry you?
:-D
I am on the high but I need to sleep now. There is morning run tomorrow (the weighing scale is faulty! Its 1kg not 2!)
Y11:05 pm
Monday, July 16, 2007
Walk me through the alleys in the darkest night
Hold my hand,
and please do not let go.
I just need a bit of warmth
to confirm that I am living
not merely existing.
Tell me you love me,
even if you don't
sincerely
Lying to me will do some good
will pull me through the desperate times of extreme pain
will put a smile on my face even if its fake.
Hug me tight
like we are parting in the next second
like there is no tomorrow.
Deliver the warmth from you to me
for I have come to be cold-blooded
by all that has happened to me.
Oh come on,
don't tell me that I am self-centered.
You are too,
expecting much in return.
But I am not ready to give in,
for I know too
that you are just the same.
Seeking a little connection to the rest of the world
through another person.
Exploring the truth in relationships
after being hurt deeply.
Yes, I can see where the wounds had been,
they leave permanent scars that you may not notice.
But I do.
Yet, again
we will not give up
not till our last breath
for there is nothing else to live for
when all these are gone.
Man, you are freaking ugly!
Yes, I am, but so are you.
Its the beauty of ugliness we are looking at.
Isn't it?
Y11:11 pm
NuffNang is putting ads on my blog, which means they are paying me for the ads. Haha. Well, no matter how little the amount may be, at least its better than nothing right? So people, visit my blog more often and I ll get more money from them :D
Anyway, have received almost all my papers except econs! The subject that I am worried the most for. Our dear tutor just refused to tell us who are the 3 people who passed, I sincerely pray that I am one of them!!! Am waiting for Thursday to come.
For GP, I passed, 50 on the dot, its not good, will try hard to improve. For Math, A 'U'! I need to buck up in math so badly!!! Anyone interested in being my math tutor?! Ah, I don't understand the new topics on top of the old ones :( So far C lit is the most satisfying one, at least I got an A.
Attended GP Review lecture today. It was really entertaining! Read this '...you must consider the considerations considerably. If you fail to consider the considerations considerably, then the considerations...' You just have to be present to listen to the way Mr.Nose-is-big say it. Oh and the way he pronounce 'v' as 'w' and 'wiolence' instead of 'violence'. K I know laughing at him isn't a nice thing I should be doing, since his linguistics are good! But still, it just sounds funny, and what more with a bit of imagination. He will call 'Vivian Lam Wing Man' 'Wiwian Lam Ving Man'. Ohhh that's like classic.
On Friday, before I went home, I was at the Esplanade Library reading my book, Keeping Faith by Jodi Picoult (yes, again!). Then I decided to go for dinner before returning to the hostel. But I ended up drinking Starbucks coffee, and buying a slice of cheesecake which I brought home 3 hours later. Well, you can imagine the state of the cheesecake when I opened the box. It was soft, oozing some disturbingly disgusting juice, and it didnt melt in my mouth, it melted in the box itself and became some clump. I wished I had kept it in the fridge until the next day, but I didn't, I ate it on the spot! The result is... I think will stay away from cheesecakes for a while now.
Anyway, my family and I are a little unhappy with my da jie, coz she comes back very late everyday from meeting her friends, and spends little time with family. I feel like murdering her please! I'd give anything to spend more time with them la, if not why bother taking the trouble to travel such a long distance every weekend? (K I know, its not THAT long compared to some of you!) Doesn't she see that family is always, and will always be, more important and precious than friends? Well I guess it really takes a lot of experiencing for one to mature, your age does not signify much. Maybe its because she hasn't gone through that path before. For me, I just can't allow my parents to worry for me in the middle of the night, sacrificing their sleep. Its not about one person enjoying herself, its about 2 other people not being able to rest well. Talk about enjoying yourself? Is that fair? You judge.
They are responsible for our physical well-being, but we too, are responsible for their mental and emotional well-being. Its a two way thing, did you realize? Please ask yourself, how many times have you been there for them when they need you? I m guilty of this too, I admit. So the least we could do is for them to not worry about us, on top of everything they have to juggle with! Being parents is not easy at all!
Ok, I have nothing else to write already. Oh 'm happy that the internet connection is good :)
I can be good without you knowing. I just don't want to show it on purpose, that would've been too shallow.
Y10:32 pm
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Its been a week. Last week was not a stressful week for me, but this week will be, because I have quite a bit of undone assignments.
Well, I went home again this weekend. Some family matters, and arguments over buying a new car for my sister. I wonder when will it be my turn to own a car. In fact, I don't want to own one, or rather， can I just refuse to recognise that I am entering adulthood? How I wished I could.
Watched Harry Potter today. This one was not bad, really. Much, much better than the last one.
Y11:25 pm
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Haven't updated in a while since last week. I went home and had quite a good time. Enjoyed spending time with my family, except the torturous headache that never failed to leave me throughout.
I am again at McD now surfing and attempting hard to do my econs essay. With two full essays to complete, I must say that I am W~A~Y behind time and the schedule I initially planned.
I am in a foul mood now, due to reasons that seem too complex for me to decipher. But nevertheless, I cannot, although I tried to, force myself to start on my first essay. That translates to me having to stay up late once again to finish up my work, and thus less getting sleep tonight.
So in other words I am eating into my precious time for other things.
It is cold in here.
My mind is stagnant now. Perhaps its time to pack up and leave.
What is real VS what you believe to be real.
If you do believe that something is real, it IS reality to you, then the question of what is real depends solely on the perspective of the person asking the question.
Someone by the name of Jonathan just added me on msn, but I don't remember knowing anyone by the name of Jonathan except my little nephew. Hmm.
Its 9.35, I NEED to pack up and go.
I was happy to hear that I was awarded marks more for my GP rewritten essay than the original essay that I wrote. That shows improvement, right? I hope it does.
=)
Miss...
Y9:09 pm
Thursday, July 05, 2007
I have decided that I shall blog less frequently from now on, coz I re-read my posts and I realised that all that I write about, at least recently, is nothing but shallow whining. I need my depth in thinking, and the way to nurture that is through my favourite activity - blogging. I will attempt to post more meaningful and interesting things here.
Where does this all come from all of a sudden? I was inspired by my friend's essay, or rather what my C lit tutor said. Meaningless stuff will make me a more meaningless person, which is really the last thing I want.
You know how sometimes people try so hard, they work so hard, yet they don't get what they desire to achieve. Well, I think that its not that they hard work are not paid off, but not yet. So don't be defeated by a single failure if you have put in the effort, sometimes you need a bit of luck. And when the right time comes, you will eventually get what you want. God is fair to all of us, because He loves all of us. I would always remember how Meiying worked so hard, and from not-so-good results, she eventually achieved her 6 points in 'O's and went to her dream jc, Suelin too. There's always hope, so don't give up.
Well, the above advice is of course not for myself, yet. I am just starting to value it, and to make it my way of achieving my goals. I know that one day I will.
Y1:14 am
I could sense the joy in her voice,
although I wasn't there in front of her.
There was a smile on her face,
if not a big grin that shows off her gums,
but either one would have been mesmerizing
like that of a young child
that she never fails to deliver.
Though faraway
I hope
the phone call did light up her day
like
it did for me.
The significance of her 52nd birthday
doesn't lie in the extravagant present from anybody
in fact, that is not our way
but,
the confirmation that no matter how the past might have been
after all,
she is still my mom.
The mom who gave me my precious life,
the mom who had been there for me for the past 18 years,
the mom who held me in her arms when I was young,
the mom who takes care of me when I am sick.
Although what she has given might not exactly be
what we expect from her,
it has always been truest from her heart,
and that, is enough.
The gap cannot be bridged within one day
if it was as easy as that, then its not love,
but I am willing to try,
I want her to know
that
I am also there for her,
and I will be there,
for as long as I can.
The path ahead will be tough
with all these years missed
there will be a lot of catching up.
I am glad that its not too late,
I am glad that I still have a chance to make up for it.
But I am guilty,
refusing to face it,
though realization came earlier.
Whatever it is,
all I want to say is
MOM, I LOVE YOU!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!
Y12:10 am
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
I passed my Chinese Lit, got 70 on the dot.
Quite glad, but not particularly happy, could've been better.
There's a lot going through my mind now, shouldn't have finished reading that damn put that puts me into thinking about ... stuff.
Got hw to rush to hand in by tmr , no sleep for me tonight :)
Y11:30 pm
Sunday, July 01, 2007
Math sucks.
No, Math rocks but I suck in Math. And last minute studying doesn't work for math, unless you are as smart as Leonard. I memorised the formulae but I couldn't even apply a single one of them. I couldn't even manage with the steps before applying the formulae so yeah, here's an 'U' grade before me already, I just know it. I feel very guilty, coz I didn't bother to listen and understand math in last semester. Sleeping during lectures and playing with my GC during tutorials are a norm to me. Even my lecture notes are not complete. Haih. never mind.
Anyway, I had a great time both on Friday and Saturday. Enjoyed myself very much. Spent Fri window shopping and Sat hanging out with friends. But I realised I spent a lot! about 100bucks in two days, on just cabbing and food alone!!! Oh my gosh, I can spend that money on a lot more practical stuff right?? sheesh!!!!
man, whatever. Now that CTs are over, I must finish all my work first, then start studying hard, cannot slack anymore!
My hostel internet sucks! I had to live without it for 3 days, from thurs to sat, and right now I am disconnected again, I have no idea why! I'm thinking of getting myself the M1 internet thingy.
I'm hungry. I want to eat porridge. I shall go n buy.
Y2:33 pm
