Thursday, July 05, 2007
I could sense the joy in her voice,
although I wasn't there in front of her.
There was a smile on her face,
if not a big grin that shows off her gums,
but either one would have been mesmerizing
like that of a young child
that she never fails to deliver.
Though faraway
I hope
the phone call did light up her day
like
it did for me.
The significance of her 52nd birthday
doesn't lie in the extravagant present from anybody
in fact, that is not our way
but,
the confirmation that no matter how the past might have been
after all,
she is still my mom.
The mom who gave me my precious life,
the mom who had been there for me for the past 18 years,
the mom who held me in her arms when I was young,
the mom who takes care of me when I am sick.
Although what she has given might not exactly be
what we expect from her,
it has always been truest from her heart,
and that, is enough.
The gap cannot be bridged within one day
if it was as easy as that, then its not love,
but I am willing to try,
I want her to know
that
I am also there for her,
and I will be there,
for as long as I can.
The path ahead will be tough
with all these years missed
there will be a lot of catching up.
I am glad that its not too late,
I am glad that I still have a chance to make up for it.
But I am guilty,
refusing to face it,
though realization came earlier.
Whatever it is,
all I want to say is
MOM, I LOVE YOU!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!
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