Wednesday, June 27, 2007
I guess I am pretty good at last minute work. Went to the national library to study yesterday but didn't do much, wasted another 4hours after till I finally settled down and did my studying from 11 to 3, stealing breaks in between to play on the comp for 10minutes or so or to take a shower to keep myself awake. Managed to wake up on time this morning, perhaps coz I was too nervous. Paper went ok, I could pretty much recall what I studied but I don't think I will score very well on that paper coz there's still a lot of analysis and explanation skills I am yet to master.
Well, now I understand why it was so difficult studying for the paper. COZ ITS IN CHINESE. Its hard to remember how to write those words, and the new vocabulary let alone the points and the appropriate words for analysis. Well I did the analysis pretty much in my own words, hopefully its not too bad.
Have been complaining to many people a lot about studying here and how I want to leave soon. But I guess I am fortunate enough to be able to choose the subjects that I want to do in the languages I like, what more can I ask for? How many people in this world are paid to study? Shouldn't I feel guilty instead about not studying hard enough?
Well that aside, As I mentioned in my last last post, I was chased out of Mc D, even BeFORE I finished my food. God knows why I didn't just tell him off. But I sat there for about 1 1/2 hours already larh. But there were empty tables lor! Haih.
Econs tomorow and I haven't started revising yet. I know people expect me to do well, hopefully I won't disappoint them and myself too! I just need a clear and imaginative state of mind to be able to write!
I am just thinking, I have been telling my friends that I didn't study, will they be unhappy if I do better than them? Not saying I am smart but you know lar, some people are just lucky, for example me! Hmm unhappy out of jealousy? or what?
I guess I have really rested enough, now I just want to get through the remaining half a year and my H1 paper done to prepare myself for the upcoming A's. Cannot procrastinate anymore!
I wished I had my aims for the future before me, if not working hard seems so futile. But I don't. Every time I think about different careers that I seem to be interested in I would start to feel afraid of losing interest for those things. Why so?
I think my blog is the most boring and most dead blog I read, I have no idea why you are still reading this. I am just letting out coz I don't have that many people to talk to in the hostel. Ya, usually I just keep quite :( Sad but its true.
I am supposed to be studying here, and I am blogging away happily.
I read a person's blog that is really inspiring. If your religion and belief can turn you into a driven and nicer person, isn't it just great?
Perhaps I should start studying now.
Y8:49 pm
