Monday, April 30, 2007
is not a day for us to rest. I have work to do, so I ain't happy about it, except for the fact that I can stay home and do my work, if it means anything at all.
I am a slacker, and I feel guilty about it, well, sometimes.
I heard bad things from Bel today: Mr. A and Ms. Eelin were scolded because of my O's results. I don't exactly know what it was about but I don't think its fair! Not at all!
Firstly, SC work is not the thing that causes my results to be bad, if its considered bad in the first place. I admit that SC work does play a part but ITS MY OWN CHOICE TO BE COMMITTED AND TO TAKE UP THE RESPONSIBILITY. So in any case, I am the only person to be blamed for my results (except maybe the stupid examiners), its not fair for them to be scolded. I will never regret what I have done in OHSC, ever. I think that OHSC helped me learn a lot, I matured a lot during my term in SC. It's valuable experience that Os results wouldn't have given me, and thus I am proud of what I have done. Learning through experience, that is what it is.
Secondly, the major contributor to my results (I won't say its poor, anyway) is my own playfulness and stupidity. Not stupid in terms of academics (well maybe abit) but as I have said here a zillion times, the inability to prioritize. Its sickening to keep repeating my mistakes here but well, that just proves that my O's results are the results of my own actions. I am regretful of the playful part, but nonetheless, I gained so much from this *poor* results of mine, I think its quite worth it. Ah I am crazy.
Anyway, I want to apologize to MR A and MS EELIN here (although I doubt you ll be reading this, since Bel said that Mr A doesn't know how to use links. haha). I am sorry for my disappointing results if you had any expectations of me. And I am truly sorry for the saikang you have to be burdened by because of me. And lastly, a big thank you for all that you have done for me, I am truly grateful for everything.
And to OH 2nd SC: I miss you guys! The 2nd SC is just so great! I remember attending our SC camp wondering are you guys really the people I was going to work with. Thank you people for the wonderful memories! I am sorry for being demanding and long-winded at times (I think its like most of the time) and sorry too for being incompetent, the juniors + grace + eve did a great job after the seniors left! So good that I feel paiseh mentioning. Thats why I do read the emails but I don't post ;P
Well whatever it is. I shall stop pondering over things that have happened and cannot be changed! There are definitely much more to look forward to! haha
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