Tuesday, March 27, 2007
And right now at this moment in time, I am happy.
I am happy because i have discovered more about myself within this short two weeks of being in SA.
Yes I am still sad with the fact that I got kicked out of AC, but I realised that its all because of my wrong doings and no one else's.
And more importantly, I saw the problem and the solution to the problem is right before me, that is to set my priorities right and act accordingly. It may sound easy, but I assure you, it's damn tough, especially for a person who has never been disciplined for the past eighteen years of her life. Its somewhat like being forced to eat, or rather, learning to cope with eating your most disliked vegetable everyday. But somehow I am enjoying every moment of this 'torture' (not so bad la, just not used to it yet) because I know that at the end of the day, no matter what the outcome is, I have done my best. I will definitely be a person different from who I used to be. In fact, ever since the last time I sang the ACS anthem as a student of ACJC, I have already become a different person. And I AM PROUD OF IT, being a narcissist of course this makes me happy.
Another thing that makes me happy is of course the fact that I have very good tutors for every single subject that I am taking, except for maybe GSC. He's boring.
My maths tutor is a fatherly person who nags and nags at you, he's so patient he will explain to you for the hundredth time if you don't understand. This definitely boosts my confidence in the subject, since I am weak in it.
My econs tutor is my grand senior, a Malaysia scholar who apparently did very well for his 'A's. Since he lives in he hostel, I can approach him for one-to-one tutoring session, provided of course that he is not yet angry with me for my late essay. However, right now I am a bit lost in econs, I don't know how to write the essays, coz I often misinterpret what the questions want. Well I ll figure that out.
My CLL tutor is a talkative China man (no offence to PRC friends ;P). Well the good thing is that he has the knowledge definitely to be imparted to us, at least better than my previous tutor. And on top of that, he reminds us in every lesson that he is very willing to work hard if we all work hard. It is definitely motivating.
The last and most respected tutor of mine is my GP tutor. Yes its a HE again. Well I love male teachers :) I have a longer attention span with male teachers ;P He is really really motivating. His talk about learning and trying to make sense of what we study is exactly the answer I have been searching for to my problem/question. Well I am really glad to have him, since GP in SA isn't exactly strong, I'm very lucky to get a VERY good and inspiring teacher ;) And he emphasizes on working hard all the time too.
Since I have good tutors for all my subjects, there is no reason for me to slack and not work hard. Wah I feel so guai for the first time in my life. I am serious. I have never felt this disciplined before, not with any aspect of my life :)
So, why shouldn't I be happy?
My stomach is grumbling, shall go for dinner now :)
Y6:25 pm
