Friday, November 10, 2006
Heh I think I need to changeYeah I can't stand this, I'm such a spoiled brat. As in because my parents give me a lot of freedom,I always take advantage of it and do everything as I wish. I'm not disciplined at all!!! For instance, I watched two movies(in the cinema, not counting dvds) during prelims, and I watched two during Os(still counting...). Yeah and last week, when I was supposed to be studying hard, I went out to Orchard almost everyday, and I involved myself in the CIP project. And for example right now, emath paper 2 is 4hours away and I'm here blogging, bearing in mind the fact that I have not studied much. What the hell is wrong with me??? I guess I need failure to prove to myself that I really need to be more disciplined. I thought prelims would be a good time, but hell, no! I didn't do that badly. Haih. But then I realised, even if I fail, I always have a way to console myself and make myself not feel bad, which means, I will never feel bad at all!!!! which means I will never learn my lesson!! Am I going to continue like this for the rest of my life??? I must stop being so complacent! Lets just say I'm too positive about everything. Heh. how?Anyway, I watched Step Up yesterday. It was cool! The dancing was so great!!! but the story a bit er... weird. And the actors and actresses are not that fantastic. But watchin the dance is definitely worth the money. I totally love the ambience of the Art School in the show. From instruments to singing to dancing, music really inspires me and gives me strength. But but I know none of the above. Sad :( Oh well, maybe I can sing a little but thats all I have. I'm so untalented :( or am I not groomed? The director of the school said that a school is to groom people, well maybe it is. From now on, I am going to constantly remind myself that I must have CONTROL. Control over my decisions and actions. Oh ya by the way, I am torn between science and art stream. How? wait, control! which means I have to stop blogging now and get on with my revision. Haha bye :)
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