Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Up, down, up, down, up, down, up, down, up, down
I feel like I m riding on a roller coaster. As is my mood. I cry so easily nowadays, give me a few minutes of privacy, I start tearing. When I have company, I laugh hysterically. Is it a way suppress the fear and feeling of hopelessness? I do not know, guess that the way to cope with stress and negative emotions, sub-consciously. I want to let it all out, but I can't, especially in front of other people. There is so many challenges ahead of me, I don't know where to start. To worry for the unknown future, or to grieve for the past? Sigh.
Finally, our dance proposal is approved. But I have lost my enthusiasm for planning it. I must pick up and start pushing hard to work. I want it be a success, the best remedy to cure the sense of uselessness in me :)
Y5:05 pm
