Monday, September 25, 2006
Failed attempt
In my last post, I said that no matter what happens, I'll be strong. Now, I am starting to have doubts. The disappointment is masked, but the fear from within stays. My lips are trembling now as I type, and I almost cannot control my fingers. It is that feeling of being overwhelmed and immersed in your fear. I felt it when prelims first started, during am, physics, bio, lit papers, and now. It's like the world may come tumbling down on me anytime. I know the results don't matter to you reading this, only to me. I must admit the fact that I didn't work hard, but that doesn't ease my fear. Somehow, I am hoping that God will let miracles happen, although I know things don't work this way. I'm not sure if its going to be worse as I get back more papers, but I think that that's the probable trend.
Got back english paper 2 and ss today, it wasn't that bad, but could hsve been better. I hate myself at times like this, for allowing myself to have a chance to not work hard and then regret for not giving my best. In the case of prelims, I can only say that I realised its importance all too late. Until there is not enough time, then I tried to do everything. Of course, the turn out won't be good.
Em tomorrow. I don't know what to expect, i really don't know.
When there’s no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way
You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice withinThere's no voice within.
Y7:57 pm
